I am absol exhausted. From all these numbers running thru my head, trying to figure out just how I am going to pay employees for work AND holiday pay, plus the regular bills, plus the taxes, plus have enough money left for all the shit that comes out during the month..... all because no one will listen to me when I advise and scream my head off TO STOP SPENDING MONEY WE HAVE NONE TO SPARE. I think they think I can do magic. I honestly do not know how I am going to juggle this money situation for work. Add to that that I THINK we are done with work next week, sometime, no one knows a day for sure, due to the Xmas break, so ALL my shit needs to be done by then. Ya know, plan ahead for the next month because you wont be doing anything work related, but bills and all still needs to be done... work never stops, and I need to make sure this place can still operate when I get back... I finished inventory today, and hopefully monday I can sort more out. I still need to be organized for the purchase of pizzas and grog for the breakup Xmas party that I couldn't tell you when it is, its just soon... no one can make a decision, so I have no clue. F**k!
Thats just work.
Not too mention that I havent stopped in a week, always running here there and everywhere. Too much socializing, responsibilities, tasks, fun, etc. Last night I had NO obligations after 5:30 and I passed out on the couch at 7... woke up at 9 and straight up to bed. Ugh.
I am exhausted. Orville is excited to see me tonight. I just want to cry. I dont want to see him, well, its not that I dont want to see him, I am just so bloody exhausted that I am not sure why I should even venture to his place. I just want to sleep and DO NOTHING. NOTHING. Then, its his moms bday on Saturday, which means dinner out tomorrow night, and I still have to find things for the Adopt-A-Family baskets, and spend time with Orville, clean the house, laundry, and do normal tasks... oh and try to find time to recoup so that im not so damn E-X-H-A-U-S-T-E-D.