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I am a girl/woman/human who has random thoughts. Sometimes you can find me here rambling, other times i might have useful stuff to say. For the most part, my friends and family can see what I might be up to in the days events. Or, for sake of sakes, its all made up... only i know.. and MAYBE a select few of you! Either way~ I am an American living in Australia. Oh, and any photo you see on this blog IS NOT FOR YOUR USE. If I have taken the photo myself or have permission to use it, YOU CAN NOT USE IT FOR YOURSELF. So be warned... and just dont use my damn photos.

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Tuesday, June 29, 2010

The dating deal

A few of you are interested in the dating game that I happen to be playing… well, not much time today to write, but thought I would give you a quick synopsis on things the past few days.

  • Said guy from post below & I make plans to speak the other day.  I took your advice, and didnt want to push him off the bridge so quickly without REALLY having a valid reason, so I agreed to call him
  • on Said day, Said guy receives a text from me saying that I would be calling at Said time.. does that work?
  • Said guy responds with text saying he is out at the pub with mates and would get in contact with me tomorrow if that okay

Oh, this is not looking good here is it… I should have never listened to all of you ‘do- gooders and faithful in love people’

The Pub. With Mates. Eck.

Then.. tomorrow rolled around:

  • Said guy sends a text that he ‘ has had such a social 3 days that he has shut down and probably not good for a chat tonight’ and asks if he can call me tomorrow.
  • My immediate response is NO. YOU CAN NOT CALL ME TOMORROW. Afterall, we scheduled a tomorrow, and that be TODAY dumbass.. and you were too busy out drinking & socializing that no, I am unavailable to you at your desire of tomorrow….then I realize I have plans anyway, and the reality is tomorrow is NOT going to work for me as I made actual plans.
  • I respond to Said guy that Im busy and maybe the night after.

Are you glad I listened to you y’all who were so quick to defend his side?

Other news.. this Italian man contacted me.. well, Im pretty sure he is Italian. I have dreamt him to be delish-ous! with lots  & lots of goodness.   So.. keep you posted on that one.. and hes closer to my age, lives a bit further, and oh yeah.. has a kid.. but better than Said guy who has 2 kids…

Either way, Italian man seems to intrigue me a little…



Monday, June 28, 2010

Its just almost 8pm


I have turned the heat on in the house to take the chill out, and all rugged up in my pj’s and Im going to go lay in bed and drift into la-la land.


Because I live alone, and I can. And the cat has already warmed the foot part of the bed.  Thats why.

Hope all is well in your worlds.

Me :)

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

At it again

There are so many options. Too many choices. And yet, nothing which makes my heart go pitter patter.  I have re-joined an internet dating website. Im not sure that I really want to be ‘dating’ but Im maybe, MAYBE ok with giving it a go. I mean, I would date, if it was the Right sort of guy. And while there are options of every social class, colors, heights, professions, marital status… etc…  I just cant seem to find the Right sort of guy.


Grandma has always told me I am Picky. Now that shes older and loving being (hey, wait a minute.. how come the I before E except after C rule doesnt apply..I know why, but its funny that the slogan popped in my head there!). anyway. Grams loves being single. And so do I. But lets be honest. I need to get laid. And so, Im gonna be picky!

I went to many schools as a kid. It seemed as if we moved a lot . A LOT. And each new home came with a new school.  Here was ONE of my schools:


Its awkward to reminisce of days past. You think of all the places you have been, what you did, how you interacted with others, how much you have learned since those days… so on.

Its nice to know that I am comfortable with where I am now.

Monday, June 21, 2010

Im needing a fix

Need my weekly fix…


when oh when will it show in THIS country?

Friday, June 11, 2010


It was pointed out to me today that its been 17 years (June) that I graduated from High School. Holy Beejibbers… 17 years… wow.. that really flew by.

Here are a few snippets of what I have learned in 17 years since not being in High School (of course, its not everything, but I only have so much writing space so bear with me):

In no particular order of importance

  • I love my life
  • I know its important to enjoy life and live for what makes you content in your heart.. whatever that is
  • You will never live up to the expectations set forth upon you
  • You must live the path you choose, live it well
  • You can live a really nice comfortable and happy life without having to be married or attached to another person
  • I like making my own decisions.. however good or bad they may be
  • I do not have to like everyone
  • I do not need thousands of friends
  • I enjoy my quality & quantity of great friendships
  • I like spending time with my own company
  • I am strong & independent. If you dont like it, not my problem
  • If I dont like what I am doing, I can change it
  • If I dont want to change what I am doing, I have learned how to justify it…yep.
  • I love to travel & dive into new cultures. The whole armchair traveller is NOT me.  Give me experiences, let me speak to the people, I want to know how they live, I want to see their world thru their eyes.. not a thru a cabana lounge or lonely planet
  • I spend money to travel rather than having the latest technology or newest car
  • I am loved
  • I love
  • I give my love to those who are worthy of it. No need to waste my gifts on those otherwise
  • I have learned to see who is worthy and who is not so worthy much quicker than I previously had
  • I value myself more and more each day
  • Its important to be honest, I cant lie for shit, and I dont really appreciate those who lie to themselves either
  • If you dont love yourself…then why the hell not? Who else is gonna otherwise?
  • I can have any job. I have had many jobs (just ask Sabrina.. she knows my resume) but as I get older, I give more thoughts to the ramifications of the economic condition before leaving one job for another
  • Learn to analyze things
  • Take risks
  • Proceed with caution
  • Somedays, run like hell towards whatever you choose. Dont think about it
  • You will get hurt in life. You need to learn to overcome it. Cry it out, and move on
  • Be true to yourself
  • Protect yourself
  • Find a moment each day that you can relish in and be in that moment, even if its just for a 30 second pause in your day
  • Take care of your car – wash it, polish it, love it
  • Out of sight, mostly out of mind.. it seems to be a general thing
  • Most people who you believe should never lie to you, will.
  • You can love a whole heap of people thru the years and still be happy that you come home to your house with just the cat waiting for you
  • I am educated and can have thought provoking conversations
  • I have true friends who know the real me
  • I have secrets
  • My experiences in life have not only taught me, but also others

Wow.. 17 years.. I always thought I had commitment issues, but after hearing that I have put 17 years into becoming the person I am, learning along the way, and showing the world what I am capable of as an independent adult… quite a good accomplishment if I do say so myself.

Funny thing is, I remember when I heard about the 5 year reunion… I laughed it off…today, the laughter was not my first response to the 17 years!

I can still remember those days. Filled with so much… of everything… and yet nothing… just new to the world… finding yourself… discovering the world…

And now, here i sit, ready to go to bed at 10 pm on a friday cuz work was crazy this week. Oh the times, they are a changing…

Sunday, June 06, 2010


I feel very accomplished in my task this weekend! Although my original plan was to tackle this project in stages (due to finances and time), I went ahead and did it all over the weekend!  A few minor body aches, a few scrapes on the legs, and finally free of white rock dust on my legs and face, and the project looks complete.  I would like to add a few more lanterns and one day eventually get a nice big outdoor canvas to hang over the fountain… all in time!


Thanks to those who have popped by to see my project, and given it 2 thumbs up.  I appreciate the kind words. And, Im in love with my new front courtyard!

Have a look…




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The last photo is from the upstairs bedroom looking down onto the courtyard.. just for you Tilda…

Saturday, June 05, 2010

A Weekend of Aches

For quite some time I have wanted to redo my front courtyard.  It was the basic look of concrete. Blah. Vanilla. Same as the others.  I had this great plan in mind, and with all hopes that it would work, I shared my idea amongst friends to see if it would be tacky looking or as nice as it was in my head.


I headed off to the store where they had some of my supplies needed. Costings. Done. Need Rock. Costings. Done. Finances… not so much.


After months of looking at my courtyard as it was:


This is the view from my front door (above)


This is my courtyard section (above)


This is the view from the gate to my front door (above)

So, after this magnificent idea in my head of what I wanted the area to look like, I finally bit the bullet and started on the project. I figured that although I couldnt really afford to do it all at once, I would do what I could and then get more rocks when I could. I knew the rocks would be spendy for the project, so I figured it would be done in a long drawn out process.


I bought my 18 packs of deck/wood materials which I needed.  I bought 2 bags of rocks, to make sure that the white color (it was a toss up between white or black rocks, but black rocks are much MUCH more expensive) and I was on my way.


I was so excited to begin the transformation, that I started in the late afternoon yesterday after getting off of work and buying my items.  I was determined to give it a go.


Here was the first photo after some gruelling body aches of bending down and picking up the decking material.


Not bad eh!


Morning came, and so did some unusual aches in my body.  I guess when your bending down and over and picking up and transporting.. it was something my body hadnt been use to in awhile.


So, I began right away this morning. Ok, not right away, but at a respectable time so that my horrid… eck I mean wonderful neighbors would not have a right to bitch.


I then realize its looking good.  But, Im also realizing I didnt get enough decking materials, even with the extra pack Tilda told me to get. Shit. What to do. I also had an issue with the length of the walkway and the size of the decking material. It was either going to be just a tad too short or hang out the bottom of the gate. What to do…. so you compromise.   And then, after all this hard work, I started questioning whether or not it looked as nice as I thought it did. I think some of the questioning was in part ‘oh my gawd, I did this by myself… is it really THIS DAMN GOOD?’


Whats a girl to do? I had most of it done. Well, with what I could, I wanted more decking material to finish it to how I had modified my original plans of the area. And, I wanted more rock. I wanted this baby finished. But, I was still unsure if it looked ok. See, I can justify anything. I mean  ANYTHING. And, I was hoping that I wasnt sacrificing the aesthetics of the area just because my plan was now a bit different than the original plan. So, I called Tilda. She wasnt really thrilled about coming over as she had her own projects to do. But, after enough guilt trips (she attended Catholic School, so I knew they would work) and I think a bit of whining on my part, she succumbed to my begging and promised to drop by.


In the meantime, I ran to the local landscape store to get 6 more bags of rocks. As much as I originally thought I would do the rocks in a process, it was looking much to nice to not finish it.


Tilda arrives. She is really happy with the results so far. I tell her modifications, and she agrees that it will look nice. Whew! I really was glad to hear that she not only liked how it was looking, but thought my adjustments would look nice as well!  She helped me spread 2 bags of rocks, and a well deserved coffee break was had.

As of tonight, my body aches in places I forgot were there. Such as my butt checks. And my thighs. And my quads. And my arms. Its almost reminiscent of days gone by of great wild sex. But its not…


Its the glory of an ALMOST done project… to be continued tomorrow. And, for those of you curious… I put down 7 bags of 20 kg rocks. Oh my goodness. Thats a workout!  But, here is what it looks like…






What a difference!  Dad even called tonight to tell me how much he liked it. He sounded really pleased, and impressed! Always good when the landlords like what you have done with the place.

As for me, I am off to the tub. I hear epsom salts screaming my name!

Tell me your thoughts? Is it better than before? Do you like it? Remember, its not quite finished… YET.