My gut hurts. My head hurts. My stomach feels as if there is a hole on the side of it.
Actually, Physically, I am okay. But, my body is reacting to news that I have been given in the last few days in a not so well way. And, to top it off, that which I thought would never happen, seems to be already in the works.
I am on a timeline: I needed everything to be okay until Jan/Feb 2010 and then hooray, things would have been fine. I just needed the next few months to breeze by.
It seems there is a bump in my road. GO AWAY Bump!
A date of October 15th has been said to me. Which is way WAY before my timeline that I needed… ack. ugh. F**K. F**K.
I know this probably wont make sense to most of you, but whatever strengths, connections to the upper management of life, the universe, whatever/whoever it is.. please please PLEASE make this ALLL go away until a much later date. Please do not let the events which could alter my life happen with this 15 October deadline.
I Just Do Not Know If I Can Take It.