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Saturday, September 24, 2011

i dislike my emotions today

im feeling very blah. and yet very frustrated today.  I have this rage inside me today that just wants to let it all go... I want to go run from everything... yet theres really nothing to run from. Im just feeling a bit overwhelmed today I guess.

Maybe it doesnt help that:

-the job I for sure thought i aced and would get to the next level, doesnt want me... ?? wtf?
-my friend has been sentenced to at least 10 years in prison.. again... yep.. slow learner
-im frustrated with people in general
-i think the lack of disregard of other peoples space and all is a joke lately
-its school holidays here in Oz, so it appears as if no one is watching their children
-i had a kid throw a rock at me yesterday.... good upbringing... everything in power to not choke the little shit and his mother

so, nothing really extravagent.. just feel so *&(*&(*&(*&*()_)__ over everything... I just want to scream... I want to cry... I just want to hide.. I want to get in my car and crank the tunes as loud as they can go, and be on a road where no one else is driving...

Ive had enough for the day. Lets hope tomorrow is better. It certainly should be.

4 comments:

GooChick said...

Fight or flight...I struggle with it every day. Sometimes it just takes a good night's sleep to give yourself an attitude adjustment, other times you have to put your fingers in your ears while muttering "LALALALA" over and over while rocking under your desk.

..or is that just me?

JEZ said...

Shit. I'd better get those Pretzel M&M's in the mail pronto!

aLifeInBloom said...

it feels like this state of mind/being is going around. :,\ I hope you feel better by today.

i'd give you a motivational quote or something but when I feel like that, motivational quotes annoy me. you already take responsibility for your actions/attitude/emotions... it's ok to take a day off and just vent/feel a lil negative.

I hope you find that inner something that helps you shake it off... that is, when you are ready.

Anonymous said...

time to make grape juice out of those lemons! Hugs