Joe Cocker "Lets go get stoned"

Cuz its been raining for days... thinking of woodstock.. and all the times of life ..

For you

Im in a bit of a struggle at the moment.  I have some really deep feelings that have surfaced again, regarding someone special in my life.  When I lived in the states, times & circumstances didnt allow us to be together, but my heart always held him so dear.  He makes me smile, he makes me feel safe, he makes me feel as if nothing in the world exists but him & I.  And, as time does.. life goes on.  And you drift apart. Thats how things go.

Catch up to years later... and here we are again... back in touch. Except Im here.. he is there. Worlds apart. Lives are different now.. he has kids and a girlfriend ... I dont want to mess things up with any of that, regardless how shitty the relationship he & she have.. they still have kids together. And, for that reason alone, its damn good thing I live in another country.  If I lived there, I know that I would struggle with not having him in my life. And, I know that she probably would not like us being friends.  And yeah, friends it would be. Im not about to ever break anyone up.. or a family... thats not me. But, some women have this idea that their man cant be friends with someone from thier past.  So, it woudl be so difficult to have the friendship we do have if I lived there.  And, with some contentment, its nice that Im way over here, able to be friends, with no threat to her, and still have him in my life. In my circle of loved people.

He was such an important person to me so long ago. We have a history together. Its deep. We both helped each other thru some pretty tough times, and both knew how to make each othe smile.  There were things that I shared with him, that no one else knew. I thought I would always have to carry the burden of that shit by myself.. but he allowed me to share things, without placing judgement, without gossiping, without making me feel that I had done bad. Instead, he comforted me, he gave advice, he listened, he was there.. and that was more than anyone else in my life was.. he was there for me. And is today.

I love you my friend.

He wants me to build a time machine. I laughed when he said that. Now.. its all I think about - how cool it would be to have him near me.

I cherish each moment we have had together in this world. Thank you for being you.

The Minnesota Song

For all my Minnesota friends & family.. your with my in spirit on this hot & humid Australia Christmas season! Love to everyone... Merry Christmas.

so slack

so its been forever and a day since i last did a post. sorry. where do I begin? My modem was acting up, my phone kept dying, I have been crazily trying to get all my work done so that we could go on holidays (we close up for a few weeks due to the weather & holidays here in Oz), and just in general have been really busy.

New curtains hung in my room~ they go over the blinds, and really help keep that sun from peeking into my room at 5 am, so Im able to sleep in until 6 on my days off! Yippee. Extra bonus? They have a backing on them to help with keeping the room cooler, so Im not letting all that cool air escape when the A/C is on... nice hey?

Its been hot as anything here. Humidity is crazy. Somedays you get out of the shower and think, Im sure I just showered, but you feel all sticky and drip with sweat. Not a nice look... but the prize is that you know your not the only one feeling that way.

We seem to have company coming from here there and everywhere for the next few weeks. Or months. Depending on how you look at it.  Its great, its crazy, its fun.  And, trying to make sure all your bits are done before they arrive... well, I will let you know how that one goes when I discover what its actually like to have my list done.  Rearranging the house to make an actual extra bedroom rather than the place where the cat sleeps and calls her own.  Moving her futon & fav chair out of the room did NOT earn me any bonus points with the cat. For the first time in 2 weeks, she finally decided to sleep in the OTHER room (where the futon is temp placed) and lay in her usual dipped/ body shaped location on the futon - she just couldnt resist it anymore.  But, Im still dealing with glares and noisy frustrations from her.  Seriously....

My house looks as if I have 30 projects all needing to be done at once.  Its not really visible to anyone else.. but I know its needing to be done.  My handmade stocking for my friend... seriously need to tackle that today.. and laundry.. but how does one do that - its been pissing down rain. Oh wait, the dryer... I use to use my dryer ALL the time in the states.. I barely use it here in Oz, love to hang my stuff to catch the sunshine and dry. But, we have had bouts of rain off and on (more on than off actually) that Im thinking of investing in a rubber ducky to get around town in.  Ya know, one of those GIANT ones... how cool would I look in that paddling down the footpath into town? 

So, apologies (again) for the lack of posts. But, I need to tackle a few things on my list of to do's so I best get cracking at it this morning.  I will keep you posted on life.

tender years

I loved this movie all those years ago. Here's a little secret tho... this song makes me cry EVERY time I hear it.... a bit of a softie... and I know EVERY word to the song. Enjoy.

Rain Rain Rain

Its been raining since the middle of November. Shit you not. I returned from holidays, and my holiday tan is quickly fading. I know… you feel sorry for me too.  Its been raining so much the last few days, that my waterfall is beaming… you can hear the gushing of the water from my driveway…

 

Thanksgiving 2010 Oz Style

Umpf

I have a fear of bugs. Insects. Crawly Things. Hate em.

So, this morning ate work I open the bathroom door, and with the usual caution I do a quick scan of the room.  I have this fear of a snake being in there on day.. and theres no where to run... my fear isnt that far-fetched.  We have had snakes in the factory, and one in the office. Which is ONE too many for my liking.

So, after a quick scan of the room, all seems fine... Im busting to pee... and then I notice a GIANT BLOODY COCKROACH on the wall right across from the toilet.  And, from previous experience, peeing in this bathroom with a cockroach is not a good thing.  I panic, I freak, and make a bunch of noise trying to finish my business without a mess, and in a quick pain like fashion get my pants back up and all that stuff...all while the cockroach is making its way straight towards me.

The result of today??? Im not peeing at work. Only 5 more hours to go with a full bladder. Umpf.  Oh, and I should mention that I would take a photo of the damn thing, but my camera isnt with me today. But, its almost as big as my hand... not palm.. not finger... HAND.

Fuck that if Im peeing in there today.  And come Monday, Im going to look good and hard to see if its still there then.