I called my dad today as its Fathers Day in the states on the 21st. There is a lot of history there, some good, and some not so good. Its kind of like the lottery when it comes to dealing with my dad~ it may be a win, and it may not be a win. You just never know how the conversation is going to go, or how its going to end.
I had a wonderful conversation with him. In fact, its been really good the last few times. He has quit drinking (again) and it was great to hear him on his saturday evening working on his cars and being sober. He holds such a special place in my heart, and whenever I speak to him, he makes me feel as if Im 5 years old again, looking up at him and seeing him smile and have so much pride in his little girl. He always makes me feel loved, and tells me how proud he is of me. I know that no matter what, I am daddys little girl.
There is something so unique about a father & daughter relationship. The lessons you learn from your father are so different than those you learn from your mother. Both of my parents taught me to stand up for myself and NEVER take shit from anyone. Yet, when it comes to my dad, he is proud as anything that his little girl stands tall amongst them all and stands for what I believe to be right. He says I get that from my grandma (and if you ever met my grandma Jane... oh goodness, well, you would never forget that meeting!). My father taught me about cars and motorcycles and engines... all that stuff. He loved having me in his garage being with him and fixing things or asking all the questions that little kids do. He loved teaching me. I remember many times watching him bake and cook for us. He makes the best choc chip cookies ever....
And now that time has moved on, and we have both grown up and gotten older and prob settled down a bit in our strong attitudes, we have come to learn & accept each other. We have a true friendship, and a love that you have for father & daughter. I miss my dad. Somedays more than others. I miss that Im not there with him some days. Its difficult to be away from your parents, and sometimes the pain is hard to deal with.
Anyway, no need to get into all that. Not today anyway. Happy Fathers Day to all the dads out there. Thank you for teaching us all that you do, each day of our lives.
Love ya dad.
Tinker
1 comment:
He's loved you more than anything else in this world, just didn't always know how to show that. He's a beautiful man and he's soo proud your his daughter. Hold tight to that love you feel. It's truly unique.
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