Now there's an idea!

Wow.. someone finally comes out and tells us how it is and should be! I love it!  No more ignorance, no more stooooopidity, no more of this shit! Hooray!  I absolutely LOVE this poster!

opps

so i was supp to be here, and writing to all of you in blog world (all 5 of you that regularly read).. adn I just lost my blog enthusiasm~ maybe because suddenly a large amount of blogs that I normally read or wander thru have turned into some sort of babies thing... nothing against kids or little babies.. but to hear about someone lactating or oozing out creme like substance from their navel... its not for me.  To top it off, I was saddened that somewhere along the line goes another one... you know.. cuz they have kids now, they will be hanging with the kids sections..... and the blogs will become kids only, and kid friendly, and other mothers will be on there, and kids photos will now be precedent... you get the idea.


Then ... you know when friends say "when I start dating, I will never be one of those friends who goes and abandons all their friends for a guy."  Its happened. Again. And it makes me cringe that its happening. Nothing you can do.... just sit back and watch your friend be whisked away.. Im not jealous, serious. But when every waking moment is inundated with HIM... and the only time said friend is available is when HE is working or hanging with the boys or visiting his parents for the weekend... suddenly, your on the list of 'see-ables'. Shits me. And to be honest, Im contemplating the idea of ditching the friend all together. Ive had enough of this shit.

Actually, Ive had enough of most of the shit. Im tired of peoples crap.... Over It Honey. So there you go, thats why I havent written.  Give me a few more days... I will be back in action... just waiting for life to play this game with me, rather than against me.

Hairy Toes

As a female, I hate looking down at peoples feet and seeing hair on their toes... everyone.. but ESPECIALLY women. Its gross. Even if its blonde hair, you can see the hair bush blowing in the wind.. ewww. Ick. Nasty. Not acceptable people.  Ever.

I shave my toes just to make sure Im not in that ewww Ick Nasty Not acceptable phase... in fact, if I had to pick just one of the next tasks before heading out in public with my feet showing (ex: wearing thongs/sandals) I woul rather have clean shaven toes before toe nail polish. Simply, no matter how pretty your toenails are painted, if you have the hairy toe monster showing, its gross ~ ewwww Ick Nasty Not acceptable!

Anyway, I woke up this morning in sheer panic.  I had a dream that I had long toe hair. First thing I did this morning while having a coffee was to inspect my toes and make sure they were hair free.

Whew!  Good to know it was only a nightmare and not a case of real life incidents~!  Dont forget to shave people... no one likes to braid your toes.

The Weekend

The weekend is slowly... SLOWLY approaching! And Im highly looking forward to it. Not much planned, actually nothing is in concrete. Im hoping its kind of the weekend where I can just do as I wish or not do as Im expected, more to the point.

I have a few possibilities of working... as in my new business which Im hoping will take off and be very profitable. But, like anything, I go gung-ho into it, and so want it to work.. the passion takes over.... and Im looking forward to a successful business, but it takes work, and hard work.. lots of effort. And after working all week, and then trying to things during the 'down time' in the evenings, and then bits here and there on the weekend... and it has to be done. Nothing successful was ever gained & retained by it just lumping itself in your lap.

My ideal plans for the weekend, might include going ice skating before they close up the rink and return it to its normal roller skate arena.. and I think I might rent the entire season 1 & 2 of Big Bang Theory and lock everyone out for the weekend.  In between moping, laundry, etc....

Whats your plans for the weekend? Are you filled to the max with appointments, schedules, running here & there or are you going to rejuvenate a bit and chill out like me?

Oh my

I dont eat broccoli.  Just not my thing. And, now I know why... did you know it gives you gas? And not quiet little farts either...

Next time I pass on the broccoli on my pizza, along with the mushrooms too.

Ewww. Gross

I live in an area where my neighbors & I are very close.  Sometimes you can hear all sorts of things you would rather not. Then again, my neighborhood is also very quiet... after 7 pm you swear you were in a morgue arena... not a sound to be heard, except for the rare occasion.

BUT

There is something so foul & disgusting to me to hear my neighbor walk out of his house in the morning, into his courtyard (oh by the way, these are the neighbors that bang the doors, scream, .... and then have a go at anyone who makes a sneeze)... so he walks into his courtyard, and clips his toenails. Do you know how disgusting it is to have your morning coffee and listen to someone clip thier toenails?  It makes me wonder, does he just leave them outside?  If he takes them in, why would he not just clip his toenails inside?

Ick.

communication breakdown

Ya'll know that song right? Communication Breakdown.... by Led Zepplin?  Well, that seems to be my last few days...it somewhat seems, that no matter who it is, either Im not communicating properly, or Im misunderstanding... and lets just say, not a good situation when 'just getting to know someone new'.... so we ended up having a 'non argument' according to him... and I spent the rest of the conversation trying to not dig my hole any deeper. Then it just continued... at work, at home, with everyone....

fuck my head hurts.... and Im REALLY not sure if its me or everyone else? Seriously.

who wants to come for dinner?

Im really wanting to BBQ... on my weber. Ive been craving the taste of bbq'd food on a weber lately.. and as soon as Im done with this recent task which is keeping me from bbq'n... it will be done. In fact, I can taste that charcoal taste on chicken with some green beans, corn & potatoes... damn... my mouth is watering~

It feels like Im running here, skipping there, and trying to sit my ass still for a moment isnt working. So.. this weekend hopefully looks to be calm... yeah right.

Doesnt it shit you when your friends do some really stupid shit... and all you can do is just shake your head?

Or, you know those moments at work when you give some business advice (being the only one with ANY experience or knowledge) and no one wants to listen.... doesnt that just erk ya?  Oh well, its like slowly watchin an ant run into the ant killer on the cardboard tear off isnt it?

Well, apologies for being slack in my blog. I just dont have the oompf at the moment. And, Im not really in one spot either, so tis been a bit difficult. ..... but the beginning of the month is near, and new beginnings are always good.

Happy Valentines Day.  May your day, as every other day, be filled with love.

Winters Bone

OMG.. what a fantastic movie.  Previously having read the book, I was very excited to see what the movie would present itself as.  I was amazed at how 'true to the book' it was.

Definitely, if you see one movie, this year, THIS IS THE ONE. Its gritty look at life, the realism of peoples faces, and the lack of Hollywood insprired plots & designs captivates every emotion in your body.

You can not help but fall into this movie.

Wouldnt you know it?

My cat eats anything I eat. Even butter.  Strange, I know. But, thats how all my cats have been... well not the butter part, but eating whatever I may eat. Back in the day, when Fudge-sicles were my favorite... my beloved Tabby use to like his own ... yep.. his OWN.

Now, Little Miss likes to eat Spam... you know that stuff that 50% of the world hate, but if your from MN, you eat it.. cuz you grew up with it.. and its such a versatile 'meat' product that when on a tight budget, you can make SO many meals to it... yep... Spam.

Well, I didnt realize I have to share it.. but I do.. with my precious Little Miss. Gotta love her. At least, her breath doesnt smell of tuna (at the moment anyway).

You frustrate Me

I want to scream at you because your frustrating me to no end.  You make all these excuses and then I am supp to deal with it. You have become a person for whom I can not pity... it just seems so hypocritical of all things you once used to say.  You need to find something better to do with your time.

What would you think if I used all your excuses?  What would you think if I told you all these things? Oh wait, I have.... and then you tell me your sorry.. .and then 3 weeks later.. your back to your same shit.

Fuck you. Fuck off.

I dont need it.  I dont want it. And, its unfair.. .yes... UNFAIR what you are doing and how you are acting.

Fuck you .  Fuck.... .OFF.

Fuel Gauge Running Low

Wow.. seems like i am just running from here to there to everywhere lately.  With the massive flood drama to having company for a solid month.. seems like life is just running me ragged.  And, today, I am 100% exhausted.  No rest ahead either. Not for at least another week.... this morning I actually woke up late for work... as in I woke up when I should have been driving out the complex... Damn. Damn. Damn.

Oh, what's a girl to do..... looking very forward to having a few days of quiet 'me' time ... with the Cat.  My poor Little Miss just looks at me and thinks.. 'who the hell are you"  yesterday I saw here for a total of 35 minutes and that includes the time I came home from work, switched clothes and headed out the door again.... and then back in... to go to bed.  Im so looking forward to sleeping in tomorrow. Hooray. Its saturday tomorrow... oh what a lovely ring that has to it.

Quickie

Have you missed me? I certainly have missed you.  But, this one post will be rather quick.  Have you heard of the floods in Australia? Well, thats been my life the last week. Luckily, my area is not as affected as others... we had road closures, possibility of being evacuated, etc... but there are other areas to the north & south of me which have been greatly damaged.. lives lost, homes vanished... terrible.

So, I have been preoccupied with life really.  Thats my excuse. I have been glued to the TV seeing what updates we are getting, as well as cleaning drains, pushing back water, attending to a leaky ceiling, and gathering up a box of supplies to be sent north to those affected by the floods.

And, in these times, I am reminded of ignorance of others. People on FB are posting that the government isnt doing enough... they are whinging that Australia gave $ to Country X, Country Y.. etc.. and where is our help.  HELLO IDIOT...  you cant just come up with a dollar figure 4 days into the floods and expect everyone to give. You need to follow a procedure, a protocol... and action plan. And, if you had ANY ounce of sense you would realize that providing helicopters to fly people off their roofs, drop off food to stranded people, etc costs money.. as well as getting in necessary people to establish shelters and emergency points.  But no, you dont think like that... do you. I would rather that pencil pusher for the govt be busy finding ways to get emergency assistance here NOW and then push numbers a bit later... and thats what they are doing.   I have no time for those that expect a hand out from me & you.... while they sit on their ass... chances are these people arent helping any one in need at the moment... except for themselves... and thats fine.. hopefully Darwinism kicks in at some point.

I think the govt and the people are doing a wonderful task.. people are helping wherever they can (except for the ignoramus' of the world).  If you want more info on the floods... check out these sites:

http://www.brisbanetimes.com.au/
http://www.couriermail.com.au/
http://www.gympietimes.com.au/
http://www.theage.com.au/

google any of these keywords:  Ipswich, Toowoomba, Gladstone, Brisbane river, Sunshine Coast... and add the word flooding to it.

Please keep everyone in your thoughts... there are so many lives affected at the moment....

Deleted post

quickie. i have had to delete a post... somehow a post about my internet dating keeps getting all sorts of attention from a few odd places... especially the escort services.... ewwwww.

so delete. delete. delete.

back soon... i have a friend from the states visiting.. no time for the computer!

Joe Cocker "Lets go get stoned"

Cuz its been raining for days... thinking of woodstock.. and all the times of life ..

For you

Im in a bit of a struggle at the moment.  I have some really deep feelings that have surfaced again, regarding someone special in my life.  When I lived in the states, times & circumstances didnt allow us to be together, but my heart always held him so dear.  He makes me smile, he makes me feel safe, he makes me feel as if nothing in the world exists but him & I.  And, as time does.. life goes on.  And you drift apart. Thats how things go.

Catch up to years later... and here we are again... back in touch. Except Im here.. he is there. Worlds apart. Lives are different now.. he has kids and a girlfriend ... I dont want to mess things up with any of that, regardless how shitty the relationship he & she have.. they still have kids together. And, for that reason alone, its damn good thing I live in another country.  If I lived there, I know that I would struggle with not having him in my life. And, I know that she probably would not like us being friends.  And yeah, friends it would be. Im not about to ever break anyone up.. or a family... thats not me. But, some women have this idea that their man cant be friends with someone from thier past.  So, it woudl be so difficult to have the friendship we do have if I lived there.  And, with some contentment, its nice that Im way over here, able to be friends, with no threat to her, and still have him in my life. In my circle of loved people.

He was such an important person to me so long ago. We have a history together. Its deep. We both helped each other thru some pretty tough times, and both knew how to make each othe smile.  There were things that I shared with him, that no one else knew. I thought I would always have to carry the burden of that shit by myself.. but he allowed me to share things, without placing judgement, without gossiping, without making me feel that I had done bad. Instead, he comforted me, he gave advice, he listened, he was there.. and that was more than anyone else in my life was.. he was there for me. And is today.

I love you my friend.

He wants me to build a time machine. I laughed when he said that. Now.. its all I think about - how cool it would be to have him near me.

I cherish each moment we have had together in this world. Thank you for being you.

The Minnesota Song

For all my Minnesota friends & family.. your with my in spirit on this hot & humid Australia Christmas season! Love to everyone... Merry Christmas.

so slack

so its been forever and a day since i last did a post. sorry. where do I begin? My modem was acting up, my phone kept dying, I have been crazily trying to get all my work done so that we could go on holidays (we close up for a few weeks due to the weather & holidays here in Oz), and just in general have been really busy.

New curtains hung in my room~ they go over the blinds, and really help keep that sun from peeking into my room at 5 am, so Im able to sleep in until 6 on my days off! Yippee. Extra bonus? They have a backing on them to help with keeping the room cooler, so Im not letting all that cool air escape when the A/C is on... nice hey?

Its been hot as anything here. Humidity is crazy. Somedays you get out of the shower and think, Im sure I just showered, but you feel all sticky and drip with sweat. Not a nice look... but the prize is that you know your not the only one feeling that way.

We seem to have company coming from here there and everywhere for the next few weeks. Or months. Depending on how you look at it.  Its great, its crazy, its fun.  And, trying to make sure all your bits are done before they arrive... well, I will let you know how that one goes when I discover what its actually like to have my list done.  Rearranging the house to make an actual extra bedroom rather than the place where the cat sleeps and calls her own.  Moving her futon & fav chair out of the room did NOT earn me any bonus points with the cat. For the first time in 2 weeks, she finally decided to sleep in the OTHER room (where the futon is temp placed) and lay in her usual dipped/ body shaped location on the futon - she just couldnt resist it anymore.  But, Im still dealing with glares and noisy frustrations from her.  Seriously....

My house looks as if I have 30 projects all needing to be done at once.  Its not really visible to anyone else.. but I know its needing to be done.  My handmade stocking for my friend... seriously need to tackle that today.. and laundry.. but how does one do that - its been pissing down rain. Oh wait, the dryer... I use to use my dryer ALL the time in the states.. I barely use it here in Oz, love to hang my stuff to catch the sunshine and dry. But, we have had bouts of rain off and on (more on than off actually) that Im thinking of investing in a rubber ducky to get around town in.  Ya know, one of those GIANT ones... how cool would I look in that paddling down the footpath into town? 

So, apologies (again) for the lack of posts. But, I need to tackle a few things on my list of to do's so I best get cracking at it this morning.  I will keep you posted on life.

tender years

I loved this movie all those years ago. Here's a little secret tho... this song makes me cry EVERY time I hear it.... a bit of a softie... and I know EVERY word to the song. Enjoy.